anticultboy

10:14 pm: so life is alright
highschool is getting really old

Opus farewell show is this friday
its awesome that we're playing in it
i wish i could write songs

i guess im a jerk...

i really cant believe
how busy i am even
without basketball

kentucky is pretty awesome
70's and 80's all weekend
i'm very convinced that
my college visit to Boyce
was much more entertaining
than the allnighter

still got lots of work
to do...












and sometimes the place im at
is at a loss for words
if i think of something worthy,
i know that it's already Yours

and through the times a ive faded
and You've outlined me again
You've just patiently waited,
to bring me back and then...

10:35 pm: Relient K - Over Thinking

I was thinking, over thinking
Cause theres just many scenarios
To analyze, look in my eyes
Cause your my dream please come true
I was thinking, over thinking
About exactly how i'm not exactly him
I'll break my heart in two
More times than you could ever do
Cause your my dream please come true

Cause i think way too much
On a one track mind
And your so out of touch
Cause i'm so far behind

[Chorus]
I can't deny this any more
The facts ignored all done before
And if theres one in this world
You let me know you're not that girl

I was sinking, lower sinking
Cause i lost the things i held on to
They let me think a thought
A thought that i would know was not
Of seeing my dream come true
I was thinking, over thinking
About how far i had let this go
One more guy/girl cliche
I know now you're just in the way
Of me and my dream come true

Cause i think way too much
On a one track mind
And your so out of touch
Cause i'm so far behind
I'm trying to make sense
Out of all of this
While your fading scent
Just slips through my grip



Dont touch the positive with a negative end
Dont touch the positive with a negative end
Cause after all of the sparks you're left alone in the dark
Cause after all of the sparks you're left alone in the dark
And while i'm able i think i'll label
Experience with you as a mistake
And while im at it, i'll say ive had it
Experience with you as a mistake

Cause i think way too much
On a one track mind
And your so out of touch
Cause i'm so far behind

I'm trying to make sense
Out of all of this
While your fading scent
Just slips through my grip

I was thinking, over thinking
Cause theres just too many scenarios
To think about, to figure out
If you're my dream please come true

09:22 pm: its been a while since i posted last. bball is over.
i got bumped up to varsity where i quickly rediscovered
that i am rather terrible at the game of basketball.
since then not to much has happened. went to laurens
with pete, kayt, and emily. we had an office party.
it was pretty cool, esp. when pete taught me how to
shotgun moutain dew. i kinda walked away from that night
feeling kinda stupid. it was fun tho.
sfk started recording and we're gonna have our
demo/EP out in about a week or less. it
sounds awesome.

thats about all the exciting stuff. besideds that
life basically sucks rite now. just feelin really
not so great. not a very fun time rite now but
i guess i'll just get over it. girls are still
heartless but after a while ya learn to just
become apathetic to it.




"The cross before me the world behind
no turning back raise the banner high
its not for us its all for You


Let the Heavens shake and split the sky
Let the people clap their hands and cry,
its not for us its all for You.


Not to us but to Your name be the glory

our hearts unfold before Your throne
the only place for those who know
its not for us its all for You

send Your hoyl fire on this offering
let our worship burn for the world to see
its not for us its all for You

not to us but to Your name be the glory

the earth is shaking the mountains shouting
its all for You
the wves are crashing the sun is raging
its all for You
the universe is spinning and singing
its all for You
the children dancing, dancing dancing
its all for You"

10:20 pm: so i just bought a new 150 watt amp head. its pretty loud.
we moved sfk practice to my house now and i have a buncha
really loud sound equippment in my basement. i like it.
i got my hair cut today. its really short. breaks still
kinda boring. lost our game against roper by 2 pts.
refs were retarded. thats about it.

09:48 pm: so i just posted 2 days ago but i have nothing to
do today so i decided to post again. yesterday was
a snow day and all i got to do was shovel snow. i also
got to talk to emily which was pretty cool. apparently
i needed a valentine. didnt get one and i didnt really
need one anyway. but yea then i went to praise team
practice. it went alright.

this weekend and most of the week is gonna be boring.
most of my friends, out of the few that i have, are
busy or out of town. got 3 games over break which
im not looking forward to really. i think its gonna
be a pretty boring week. hopefully it wont be.

09:00 pm: so i just got back from my bball game today.
played like crap in the 1st half but did awesome
in the 2nd half. we lost by like 20 or so but
it dont matter to me, i just like playing.

so lately ive been slacking with my Bible reading.
not a good thing. ill try my best to get back with
it. still got lots of stuff to work on in my life.

lot less drama. i like it. relationships all around me
are going crazy. ppl getting together, ppl breaking up.
it all happened so quickly. ive been alright tho, a lot
better than i had been doing. not too much to worry about.

alpha is over. not so cool but i think it made an impact
on the kids who went. i like seeing people impacted by
the gospel. still really busy, but it all works out.
just waiting for winter break, maybe then i can chill.






"do everything without complaining or arguing, so that you
may become blameless and pure, children of God without fault
in a crooked and depraved genertaion, in which you shine like
stars in the universe as you hold out the word of life-in order
that i may boast on the day of Christ that i did not run or
labor for nothing." philippians 2:14-16

^i like that one

10:36 am: so i just got back from winter camp at spring hill. it was pretty cool, the guy from xxxchurch.com craig Gross, was our speaker. lots of stuff is going on. mainly with relationships and stuff. im not sure exactly what God has in store but im sure it'll all be worked out. i guess for now i'll keep looking towards Him and not worry about that kind of boy-girl relationship stuff.










"withdraw from everything that's hurting me,
until you've finished your work in me"
-RK

09:47 pm: well...i dont know whats up. ive been all over the place this week. esp with hc and all. it was pretty awesome esp going with haley. She made it so it didnt suck. crappy show at lenny's with crappy sound system. been sleep deprived ever since the weekend.
been in The Word a lot more lately. its been pretty sweet what God's been doing in my life lately. Even tho i dont feel so hot a lot of the time i guess i kno it'll be alright. so it helps.
i guess its not easy doing the right thing. letting go of stuff. highschool girls are heartless (not all but most). girls are distracting.










"feelings go beyond repiar, its not fair"

08:23 pm: so i guess things have been alright lately.
Except for the fact that i suck at basketball
and im insanely busy all the time. i guess its
just life. ive been kinda in the dumps lately.
got no one to talk to really, not anyone who
wants to hear it anyway. God is the only person
ive been talking to much lately. besides, He's
the only one who can really help me with my problems.

10:02 pm: "Lifesong"
by: Casting Crowns

Empty hands held high
Such small sacrifice
If not joined with my life
I sing in vain tonight

May the words I say
And the things I do
Make my lifesong sing
Bring a smile to You

Let my lifesong sing to You
Let my lifesong sing to You
I want to sign Your name to the end of this day
Knowing that my heart was true
Let my lifesong sing to You

Lord I give my life
A living sacrifice
To reach a world in need
To be Your hands and feet

So may the words I say
And the things I do
Make my lifesong sing
Bring a smile to You

Hallelujah
Hallelujah
Let my lifesong sing to You




i really like this song and they lyrics are awesome. so i thought that i'd share them with whoever wants to read them. the lyrics are awesome by themselves but the song itself is amazing.